You know that feeling when you get a BFN? I’m pretty sure that OPKs were invented to give you that feeling, morning after morning. That damned pink line just won’t get any darker! I’m on day 16, so, I really shouldn’t worry so much, but I’m past the mid-way point for potential ovulation, and I’m getting a little panicky.
It doesn’t help that I bought the super-extra-large pack of OPKs, thinking that if it didn’t work this month, I could use them next month. Except, I failed to realize that apparently these particular tests (which were freaking expensive!) are apparently much like yogurt, or milk, or other expiration date having products. I guess that once opened, I have 30 days to use ALL of them, or they won’t work anymore. Bastards! So, I’ve been peeing on them twice a day, because at this point, why the hell not?
Also, remember that I bought that fertiliscope? (That’s what I call it anyway) That thing where you spit on it and it measures estrogen and you’re supposed to see “ferning patterns”? It was a piece of crap. Doesn’t work at all. It could be user error, but, I’m following the directions as accurately as I can.
So, basically, I’m driving myself crazy trying to figure out my O date. (Which is why I don’t temp chart anymore). Maybe I should seek out a witch doctor or something (don’t think this hasn’t crossed my mind, many times, or that I don’t where I can find one, because I know of at least one I could find).
Thinking of calling an RE today, seeing if I can get in w/o a referral from my GP (who’s out on maternity leave. Lovely.) because I don’t want to have to start this process again next month with a stranger (The OBGYN at my clinic), only to have to start again w/ an RE the following month. Seems like explaining my medical history one too many times, and, I feel like the other doctor at my clinic won’t monitor me as closely as I’d like.
I don’t really know what REs do. I mean, I have an idea, but, I’ve never seen a specialist of any kind, so I’m kind of freaked out. Plus, I’ve never gone to a man doctor before (as an adult, anyway) and don’t know how comfortable I will feel. I’ll update when I know more…