I’ve been a little hesitant to write “the history” of our struggle w/ infertility because it makes me deal w/ issues I’m not quite keen on dealing with, especially when I’m all hormonal, but I figured I needed to buck up and just do it.
My Husby and I have been together for 4 1/2 years, married for almost 4 (Yes, we got married pretty quickly. But when you know, you know.) We’ve been trying to have a baby for the past 3 1/2 years, with (obviously) no success.
We spent the first year of being together actively keeping babies away. I was on that deathly BCP, so I wasn’t realizing there was anything wrong with my cycles (sure, I was horribly depressed, but boy, were my periods regular!). About a year in, we decided we weren’t going to “Stop” anything from happening, and then AF disappeared.
I did the standard. I convinced myself I was pregnant on long cycles, etc. I didn’t know what was wrong with me, or how related it was to us not getting pregnant. About 3 years ago, we figured out the PCOS thing (though I wouldn’t have it confirmed by a doctor for another 6 months.)
So yeah, PCOS, IR. I’ve done progesterone, estrogen, and Clomid. I do about 2000 mg of Metformin every day. I also have hypothyroidism, which ain’t helping things.
I’ve miscarried twice. I don’t talk to people about it, and to this point, very few people know/knew about it. Both times I didn’t know I was pregnant until after the fact. (Which I think helps in dealing with it MUCH more tolerable.) We weren’t very far along (it’s especially hard to judge given my LOOOOOOONG cycles.) Once 2 years ago, and once a year ago. Maybe I’ll write about them another time, but this is as much as I want to divulge for now.
Hopefully that gives you a glimpse into my IF world. I’m really into naturopathy, I’m vegan (for the most part…I occasionally have seafood or allow for a little egg in other people’s baked goods. I am trying to stay completely away from dairy, however), and am in love with The Infertility Cure. I’ve been doing acupressure and take a crapload of herbs.
So…thanks for reading, and for your comments. This community does quite a bit in providing support for something that is very difficult to talk about.